Matt Asks Me Weird Things

You know what’s a really incredible thing? Loving and living with your absolute best friend in the world.

After 5 and a half years – or, almost 2000 days (I don’t know why I Googled that) – being asked weird questions by my better half, Matthew, has become the norm. We have the strangest conversations, like everyone else, but Matt in particular comes up with the most ridiculous things. Tonight, I was thinking about this one particular memory, and I suddenly remembered that I noted down a few of the weird questions he asked me, just for, I don’t know, future notice, I guess.  We went on a summer hike in the middle of nowhere, and periodically throughout the walk, he’d turn to me and ask a question. As if the beautiful walk, rolling hills, and blazing sunshine wasn’t enough, this made for a super special memory.

For all you lucky people that do live with your best friend, especially if that best friend of yours is a massive, random weirdo, you’re probably gonna relate with me a little here! If not, admire a few of the weird and wonderful things that Matthew thought to ask me throughout the duration of one hour.

Green Landscape Trees

If you had a horse, what would you name him?

Frasier, Dougie, Ezekiel, Felix. I think I love Ezekiel the most, but I can imagine my fictional, beautiful, shiny stallion with all of the above names.

What mythical animal would you most love to find in the wild?

To clarify, he also meant “to find and have as a per”. This was easy for me. I’d want to find a domesticated unicorn or Pegasus or Rapidash (do Pokémon count?). As you probably already guessed, I’m pretty obsessed with horses – but, alas, I do not own a horse. I did also consider a Phoenix because 1) it’s beautiful, 2) you won’t be sad when it dies, because it will come back to life 3) they have the ability to heal with their tears.

Would you chop off your own arm if you could replace it with a mechanical one?

Basically, no. We debated this one for a while because, yes, the mechanical arm has countless advantages but I can’t imagine any of those advantages outweighing the unimaginable pain of having to cut your own arm off. I also like the idea of, at least for now, being completely human. If you were offering a deal more like “would you chop of your pinkie to become a bionic human, or human 2.0, with massively improved cognitive functions?” then I might say yes.

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What do you think?

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50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind

Before writing up my 101 Thing in 1001 Days challenge, I didn’t know this list of questions existed. Apparently, they’re quite often found on people’s bucket lists. When I found them, I knew I’d love to complete the challenge one day. Today is that day.

Unlike a lot of question posts, these aren’t digging for your average “about me” answers. They make you think. They make you question things – your future, your past, your happiness. They’re also a lot of fun to answer, which is why I want to complete them.

When I was young and the internet was terribly boring, I used to find giant lists of questions to answer and store them in public memos for my Myspace friends to read. Ah, nostalgia. I’d love to say people didn’t care and people didn’t read them, but they all did… We were all just as sad as each other. Humans are nosey!

Don’t worry, I’m not having some sort of quarter-life crisis. I just thought you’d be interested to see how I answered them! You might also be inspired to take on the challenge yourself.

50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind

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1. How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

Either 6 years old or 40 years old, depending on what mood I’m in. If I could actually choose though, I’d be 18. That was probably one of the best years of my life.

2. Which is worse, failing or never trying?

For me, failing. I hate failing. I’d rather never try anything new again than fail.

3. If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

We have to do the things we don’t like because society tells us that straying from the norm is a bad thing. Thankfully, this way of thinking seems like it’s finally starting to fade away.

Life’s too short to miss out on the things that make you happy!

4. When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

Probably, but that’s because I have so many ideas and so many plans that it would be practically impossible for me to do it all. There’s not enough time.

5. What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?

This is a tough one! I’m conflicted between choosing war, poverty and hunger or equality. I think I’d most like to bring equality to the world. Surely, if skin colour, gender and religion didn’t divide people, the world would be a far more peaceful place.

Also, stop killing the planet, you monsters!

6. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

Anything creative. Wow, I’d be absolutely loaded.

7. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

Right now, I’m settling. That’s not permanent though. After university, I’m hoping I’ll be brave enough to do exactly what I believe in.

Related: If I Could Do Anything…

8. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

I doubt I would have spent 22 years of my life with one simple goal of ‘get an education’. I love education, really, and I’m so proud of how far I’ve come but 22 years would be over 50% of my life!

9. To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

Erm, I’d say quite a lot. I don’t really take any shit from anyone. Recently, I’m following a path that I don’t necessarily want to be on, but it’s for the greater good. I know it will benefit my future. Although I dislike the path, I still made the concious decision to stay on it.

10. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

Honestly, doing things right. I don’t think I have a problem with worrying about doing the right thing. I’m sure that just comes naturally to me.

11. You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?

I wouldn’t stand for that. That’s not fair.

12. If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

Be kind.

13. Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Of course. Without a second thought.

14. Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?

Definitely, when I was younger and I didn’t know any better.

15. What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

The way I navigate socialising (or the lack of it) is quite different.

16. How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?

This is something I struggle with in real life. Because me and Matt are so similar, when I’m with other people, it baffles me how the things I like are so unappealing to them. It’s weird. That’s humanity for you, though.

17. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?

I want to open an animal sanctuary. Money is holding me back.

18. Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

Definitely not. My future seems bright, no need to look back.

19. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?

Canada. Everything about Canada is welcoming. It has good health care, fantastic job prospects, an awesome Prime Minister and high social equality.

I’d also consider moving to Croatia, because… have you seen it?

20. Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?

Nope and nope. Patience, friends.

21. Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

I worry anyway, so I may as well be a worried genius.

22. Why are you, you?

Because, kids, when mummies and daddies love each other very much, they do a special dance…

23. Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?

Oh, definitely. I’d love to have me as a friend. I’m ridiculously empathetic, I’m a great listener and I’d take all your Instagram photographs for you, because what else are friends for?

24. Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

Losing touch with a good friend who lives close by. That’s a choice. That’s rejection!

25. What are you most grateful for?

This is a bit difficult. Obviously, I’m grateful for my health and my home. I’m also insanely grateful for Matthew who’s made me happier than I’ve ever been before, my gorgeous kitties who fill such a void in my heart and my family who still love me even after I moved away from home.

Pink Hearts

26. Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?

My entire life revolves around memory. I photograph everything and keep thousands of mementos simply because I’m terrified about losing my memory. So, this is hard.

Initially, I was going to say I’d rather never make new memories, because letting go of my old, precious ones would be way too difficult. What if I gave up my old memories and then wound up in an accident and died? But, then again, I have a future. I’m getting married soon, I have a full life ahead of me. I can’t imagine not being able to remember it all.

I think I’d rather lose all of my old memories, but I’d be forever heartbroken about it. I’ve had some incredible moments throughout my short life so far.

27. Is is possible to know the truth without challenging it first?

Yeah, without a doubt. “Is that a window? Yes.”

28. Has your greatest fear ever come true?

My greatest fear is dying so… no. All of my other fears sprout from this main bad boy, and some of those have already come true.

29. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?

Yes, and it will always matter. My heart still hurts to think about some of those things.

30. What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?

Oh, this is a good one! I have so many wonderful childhood memories. I can’t particularly pin-point a specific memory though. All the times we went camping, pinching my dad’s style of music, all the hilarious car journeys, jiving with my mum, making silly videos with my brother… the list is endless.

31. At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?

In one year, me and Matt made the decision to move into our first home together, got accepted into university, got our first jobs, saved up lots of money for a deposit, found a gorgeous city centre flat, moved into our flat and then proceeded to have the best few months before starting our first year of university.

That was amazing.

32. If not now, then when?

On Monday. It’s always Monday.

33. If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?

You could fail.

34. Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?

I don’t walk up to people, stare at them and walk away, no. This sounds like it should be one of those romantic questions, but I don’t think it works. It’s just weird.

35. Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?

Crazy people take things to the extreme. They take their religion, twist it, and make it fit whatever messed up ideal they’re trying to share.

36. Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?

No.

37. If you just won a million pounds, would you quit your job?

I’d continue until September to finish my internship, but I wouldn’t then quit my final year of university. However, I wouldn’t find a job after graduation. I could do so much good with a million pounds…

38. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?

This question depends on how much work you already do. I’d rather do lots of enjoyable work – like, dream job material. If it wasn’t dream job stuff, then give me less work and I’ll be fine.

39. Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?

No, actually. I don’t feel like that at all.

40. When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?

Hmm, I have a new idea every week. If anything, this is one of my downfalls.

41. If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?

Mum, dad and my brother, Jared.

Does Matt die in this scenario too? So, I lose all my family and the love of my life? I’d just rather die too, to be honest.

42. Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?

No! Life is already too short.

43. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?

Alive is coping. Work, pay bills, sleep. Living is doing what makes you happy.

44. When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?

When you have nothing left to lose. Until then, I’ll probably always calculate risks and rewards.

45. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?

I think it’s drilled into our heads from a young age that making mistakes is bad, so once we eventually understand that people can learn from their mistakes, it’s already too late.

46. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

Wow, so much.

47. When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?

When I read this question, and involuntarily took a big, deep breath.

48. What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?

I love so much. I love too much and too hard. I think this blog post is full of lots of love, and so much honesty! Before then, I had a giant cuddle with Harley (one of my kitties).

49. In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?

Not off the top of my head, no. I could always check my blog to see what I posted that day, or me and Matt could nosey through his “line a day for 5 years” dairy. I’d manage to remember if I tried hard enough!

50. Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?

I’m making them for myself. For sure.

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Well, I enjoyed that! I hope you did too. If you feel like answering these questions, tag me or link me your blog posts – I’d love to see how you got on.

I actually feel really calm right now. I feel as if I just contemplated my whole past, future and now, coming out the other side a little more stable and a little more prepared.

What do you think?

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Doubts About The Future

I thought I had my career figured out.

Although a Computer Science degree does leave my options pretty wide open in a field that I absolutely love, I was sure that writing code for a living was my future and my passion. I’m sure it still is, somewhere deep down, because when you put me in front of a computer and let me code for fun I’m in my element. There’s a difference, though, between that and between doing it because you have to pay your bills. For me, being forced to do something (whether that’s for a job, coursework, or because you’re faking interest) sucks the passion out of it. This has happened to me before, as I’m sure it has to most people, and I’m sure I’ll get over it, but there has always been other things that I love more… I was too anxious and too practical to believe I’d be able to make a living from them.

It’s always something creative, too. My life-long passion for creativity and my need to do everything to the best of my ability work incredibly well together. It’s like I was born to be creative, in one way or another. I could go on for hours about all the different ideas I’ve had to allow me to be creative for a living, but they never happened so I won’t bore you.

The best example of this would be my photography. I feel naked without my cameras. If I knew I’d succeed, making enough to money to live as happily as we do right now, I would drop everything for my chance. It’s a dream, and it’s one I’m not sure I’ll ever have the guts to follow. I’ve always been obsessed with taking photographs, documenting my memories, meticulously organising and storing them away for almost a decade, but it’s not just about memories now and photography is simply part of me.

Related: How I Organise My Digital Photos

But hey, you gotta pay the bills.

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Meet the Blogger

I had a little slot on the lovely Chanelle’s blog today, as part of her “Meet the Blogger” feature. If you’re in the mood to get to know me a bit more, have a read of the interview!

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Chanelle Hayley

MorganHello, lovelies!

I’m Morgan @ “The Secret Diary of a Computer Science Student”,  a British lifestyle and creative blogger with a love for all things books, beauty and geek. On top of that, I’m a super keen photographer, a software developer, and a cat lady. Nice to meet you!

1. When did you begin blogging?

I started my blog in early August this year but I feel like I’ve been blogging for years! My blog is my safe place where I can share the huge variety of thoughts and ideas my brain produces – it’s chaos up in my mind, I have too many hobbies! I’ve learnt so much and met so many lovely bloggers already though. I can’t wait to see how my blog progresses throughout 2016, because I have so many plans for its’ future 🙂

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“Sisterhood of the World” Award

Sisterhood of the World Award

Rules:

  • Thank the giver and link their blog to your post.
  • Answer the 10 questions given to you.
  • Pass the award on to ‘N’ (as many as you want) other bloggers of your choice and let them know that they have been nominated.
  • Give your nominees 10 of your own questions to answer.
  • Include the logo of the award in a post or on your blog.

My Questions:

  • How would you describe what your blog is about?
    My main blogging “problem”, if you can call it that, is that my blog doesn’t have a niche – but I think in a way, that is a something that makes my blog interesting. I’m very creative, very unique, very geeky and very loving. I think all of that comes across in my writing!
  • Do you see your blog changing (as in expanding or developing in any way) at some stage in the future?
    I’m tittering between moving my blog to wordpress.org, but I can’t see any reason to put my little baby through the unnecessary stress. Other than that, I’m very happy with it’s appearance and I love my style of writing. If anything, I’d like to give myself a better blog schedule but I’ve already settled with one post per day, along with a full time job and a home life, so I’m pretty busy.
  • Do you write your blog posts straight onto the WordPress page or onto a word document first?
    I write straight into the WordPress editor.
  • When you write do you need to be on your own or are you happy to write with others around you?
    It completely depends on the type of post I’m writing. For example, tonight’s award post is written in front of the TV, with my cats cuddled on my knee and Matthew sat next to me. And that’s fine. Yet sometimes, when I’m focusing a lot more on the content, like a review, I have to be alone and silent.
  • Which is your favourite species of tree, and why do you like it?
    Cherry Blossom Tree, because they’re beautiful.
  • If you were to have a day out somewhere easily reachable from your home, where would it be?
    Whitby, I think. Hard question, but Whitby is an absolutely stunning town.
  • Which ‘celebration’ (annual or otherwise) in the country where you live do you enjoy the most?
    Christmas! It’s a beautiful, happy time of year. Yet, with all of the horrors happening around the world recently, it’s hard not to feel sad. Me and Matt have planned to put some time, effort and money into helping others this year, such as less fortunate children and the homeless. I got butterflies just thinking about making someone else happy!
  • Which way would you choose to travel, given the choice: car or train?
    Pros and cons for both. Car, less time to focus on the passing views, but more freedom to divert and view things more personally. Train, less freedom to choose the route, but can view all the beauty as much as you like. Because I don’t drive yet, I’d say car – it seems more excited! I’ve had my fill of trains recently!
  • Which subject did you enjoy the most at school?
    English, IT and Art. I couldn’t choose between them.
  • What do you think is the best thing about being a woman today?
    The exposure to the mistreatment and inequality around the world. Expose generally leads to change!

Thank you Millie – I really enjoyed these questions!

I’ve been looking for a good spot to squeeze this nomination into my blog, because I couldn’t wait to answer them!

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My Nominees:

My Questions:

  1. Does a particular smell trigger any memories? What smell?
  2. What is your favourite time of the day?
  3. Are you a cat or a dog person?
  4. You have one free night, one free pass: what would you do, without consequences?
  5. That feeling when your stomach flips a little, with excitement, or love: do you still/have you ever felt that?
  6. Do you have a favourite film?
  7. Can you cook?
  8. What is your dream job?
  9. Is there anything you’d choose to change about yourself?
  10. What’s your favourite type of music?

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-Morgan

 

Starlight Blogger Award

Evening, lovelies!

I have a little award post to share with you tonight – The Starlight Blogger Award, nominated by the lovely Kat at The Impossible Girl! I absolutely love her blog, and I highly recommend you follow her if you are a big fan of books, TV and movies! Thanks for the nomination!

Rules:

  1. Thank the giver and link their blog to your post.
  2. Answer the 3 original questions and then the 3 new questions from your nominator given to you.
  3. Nominate your 6 favorite bloggers! In your nominees I would like for you to think at the light emanating from the stars the ones that truly touch your soul with their work, the ones that are the light for you a true STARLIGHT Blogger.
  4. Please pass the award on to 6 or more other Bloggers of your choice and let them know that they have been nominated by you.
  5. Include the logo of the award in a post or on your Blog, please never alter the logo, never change the 3 original questions answer that first then answer the 3 new questions from your nominator and never change the Award rules.
  6. Please don’t delete this note:
    The design for the STARLIGHT Bloggers Award has been created from YesterdayAfter. It is a Copyright image, you cannot alter or change it in any way just pass it to others that deserve this award.
    Copyright 2015 © YesterdayAfter.com – Design by Carolina Russo

The Original Questions:

1. If you could meet anyone from throughout history, who and why?
Tough question! I’d like to meet Vincent Van Gogh (to see if he really did hate his own work, and to tell him how famous and loved he eventually became) or Ada Lovelace (because she was one of the first women in computing, and well, relevant).

Vincent and the Doctor

2. What is your favorite book and why?
Impossible to answer. I love too many books to even narrow this down slightly… I’m gunna have to cheat and give you a little list.
War Horse: absolutely broke my heart. Such a brilliant idea to narrate through the horses of the war, and gave the war a kind of innocence through the horse’s eyes.
The Hunger Games trilogy: the second trilogy I ever read, and arguably the books that sparked (more like reignited) my obsession for reading. Katniss is badass, and the futuristic war zone is epic.
Fahrenheit 451: such a good idea for a book. I couldn’t put it down, and it’s thought of as a favourite since.
1984: a society that is easily, and terrifyingly, easy to relate to. It’s such an interesting book.

3. Who is your favorite fiction character from any medium and why?
Another tough question… I’m going to have to go with the Doctor. My doctor, the 11th Doctor. Close behind would be Crowley from Supernatural, because how can you not love a psychotic, mean king of hell who has a soft spot for Dean like everyone else on the planet?

Supernatural Crowley

Kat’s Questions:

1. If you could be a character in any fictional story of your choosing (book/TV/movie/comics/etc.), where would you want to go?
Tamriel (Skyrim’s fictional, fantasy world) would be pretty cool…. I’m sure the dragons wouldn’t be an issue, because I’d be kick-ass Dragonborn, of course.

2. What’s a song that always gets you in a good mood?
Anything upbeat by ELO. My favourites!

3. Did you ever consider going to a Comic Con? If yes/no, why? Would you dress up as someone else?
Yeah, of course! Being geeky is like being in a giant family of people who understand. I would dress up, but I’m not sure what as! I have a hard enough time thinking of a Halloween costume – this year I missed a party, because I got too irritated thinking of something to wear!

Nominees:

I have yet to accumulate a good selection of bookish blogs, and I think this award is very bookish!

Instead, how about if you have a particularly interesting answer to any of the above questions you let me know in the comments! Yey, sharing!

Starlight Blogger Award

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-Morgan

Liebster Award

Evening readers!
A little insight into my life tonight, because I was nominated for the Liebster Award by the lovely Becca @ Becca-Anne Beauty!

Rules:

  • Thank the blogger who nominated you with a link back to his/her blog
  • Answer the questions asked by the nominator
  • Nominate 5 – 10 bloggers with under 500 followers
  • Create 10 questions for the nominees to answer

So, here are the questions I’ve been asked to answer!

  1. What made you decide to start blogging?
    So much to say, so little time! Plus, I’m on holiday from university at the moment and will be starting a software development placement this month so it was now or never!
  2. How long have you been blogging for?
    Almost 2 months now. Loved every night and every post and everyone I’ve spoken to.
  3. Who inspires you the most?
    Ooo, tough one. I’m not sure. I’m not easily inspired. I fixate on things until it becomes a part of me, instead of seeing inspiration and integrating it partially into my life.
  4. Your favourite book?
    That’s like asking a parent to choose the favourite child! I love so many books but ones that come straight to mind are Dorian Gray, 1984, The Harry Potter series, Hunger Games trilogy and the Maze Runner trilogy (plus prequel…). Okay, that’s more than one and it’s still not enough but it’ll do!
  5. Your favourite animal?
    Cat lady for life. I would sell my soul for a horse though, so they come in a close second!
  6. Coke or Pepsi?
    Coke, please.
  7. Your favourite quote
    “In 900 years of time and space, I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important.”
  8. Your favourite food?
    Dippy eggs and soldiers, mmm.
  9. Your favourite film?
    Can’t even begin to decide! I think I’ve seen every film ever made (okay, I’m lying but I’m an obsessive film buff and I’ve seen a hell of a lot…)
  10. How many siblings do you have?
    I have one (little) brother! I say little, but he towers over me.

Hard questions, Becca! That was fun though, thanks again for the nomination.
I’m not going to nominate anyone though because I’ve only just had an award and can’t nominate the same people straight after!

🙂

Thanks for reading, lovelies!

-Morgan