Who’d have thought your hair colour would be such an important consideration when studying in a male-dominated course? Nope, me neither.
I’ve recently been thinking about changing my hair colour, from my current and much loved ‘Ruby Red’ back to blonde. Not because I don’t like my red hair, I have a super crush on red lips/red hair/red nails combo so it’s not that. It’s just that I’m pretty much as pale as you get – I don’t tan, I burn, I’m one of those. I thought, now Summer is ending, maybe I should go blonde again so that the paleness of my face against my dark red hair doesn’t blind passers by once it hits Winter.
I decided, yep, that’s what I’ll do. I even began to plan Halloween costume ideas around my blonde hair! But then I began to think about why I changed from my blonde hair to red in the first place.
As you probably have guessed by the title of my blog, I’m a Computer Science student and I do love it. However, there aren’t many female students on this course – I think there are 12 women out of almost 200 students and this is something I found super uncomfortable to start with. I was always overlooked. It seemed that lecturers automatically presumed I was no-good, and I’ve had some pretty crappy comments from both lecturers and students alike whilst I’ve studied there. Well, I showed them how wrong they were with some pretty awesome results (go, me).
Anyway, some of the comments I received were actually about my hair, believe it or not! At the time, I was blonde and I was regularly taunted with the whole ‘dumb blonde’ idea. How hair colour determines intelligence is beyond me, but let’s not get into that. I thought maybe the guys would take me more seriously if I changed my hair colour, and was a ‘quirky’ red head instead or something. Maybe they wouldn’t think I was stupid, and I’d be able to go a couple of days without a “go back to hairdressing” remark. And that’s what I did.
So, my dilemma: Will the personal confidence boost that blonde hair would give me outweigh the confidence knock that I’ve faced before? Is it worth the risk of being judged instantly? Is is worth the daily taunts about my intelligence? Will I regret it if I revert back to wearing no make-up and plain clothes so people don’t think I’m a stereotypical blonde?
I’m sure some people will just think “oh, it’s not a big deal, just dye your hair whatever bloody colour you like”, but when it’s your future and your studies that are being walked all over it’s not that easy.
Thanks for reading.
Have any of you experienced anything like this before? Did you manage to overcome it?